am like the sunlight in the morning. I intensify the
light of morning until you awaken. Until the light awakens
a person, even the Light of Consciousness Itself, the
person continues to dream, tries to survive within the
dream, manipulates himself or herself within the dream,
pursues all kinds of goals, searches, none of which
Awaken the person. All ordinary means only console a
person and distract him or her within the dream. I Myself,
the One Who would Awaken you, am not a person, not an
individual within the dream. I Am your Very Consciousness.
I Am the Real, the Light, the True Waking State, the
Breaking Through the force of dreaming. It is not that
you are some poor person who needs some other poor person
to help you out. It may appear to be so within the dream,
but essentially it is your own Ultimate Self-Nature
Appearing within the dream to Awaken you. I Am your
Awakening, and your always already Conscious State.
ADI DA SAMRAJ:
What arises falls, what appears disappears, what expands contracts.
Every action has an equal and opposite reaction. Neither the
expansion nor the contraction, neither the action nor the reaction,
is Truth. It is simply expansion, contraction, action, reaction.
There is the dream, and there is sleep.
called the "expansion of consciousness" is not Truth.
It is the stimulation of perception. Why must you seek Truth
by this expansion? The reason you feel you must pursue the Truth
with it is because you are suffering. You are already suffering,
whether you expand your mind or not. Even if you succeed in
expanding your mind, you suffer. The one who feels the mind
expand is the same one who feels the mind is not expanding or
is even contracting. He or she is a contraction, a dilemma,
a sense of separate existence. That is the motivation to this
search. The sense of contraction is the motivation to expand
the mind. Simply to experience is to expand the mind. It increases
the objects of the living consciousness. But all of those objects
of the living consciousness, consciousness — high or low, beautiful
or not — imply the same status of the living consciousness,
which is the separate self sense.
see one thing, say, a red balloon, "I" is seeing this
red balloon. If you see every thing, "I" is seeing
it. "I" is seeing the seventh heaven. "I"
is seeing dog shit on the street. It is always the same. The
contraction is motivating the search. The separate self sense
is its form. Understand this. That understanding Realizes Truth.
nothing whatever to do with expanding the mind or not expanding
the mind. Truth is not a form of experience. The pursuit of
mind-expansion is a form of the search, dependent on separation,
motivated by the contraction. And successful expansion does
nothing whatever to the motivating condition itself. The separate
one only acquires various objects for itself thus manufacturing
a feeling of security, an illusion of survival. But it cannot
survive. It has no independent and formal existence.
is felt as a limited capsule of life-energy, surrounded by mystery.
It is like a time bomb it has a certain amount of time
until it terminates. If you experience a great deal with it,
it burns out quickly. If you throw it off a cliff, it smashes.
"I" assumes itself to be this limited little thing
under the conditions of life. And people manipulate it from
the point of view of whatever strategy they happen to choose.
But always this original assumption is your suffering, your
It is really
a simple matter. The usual person thinks: "This body and its
psyche are dying. This world is dying. Everyone is suffering,
everyone is seeking. There is mortality, there is frustration,
and limitation." But none of that is Truth. Those interpretations
are not Truth. The world itself is not Truth — nor is life,
nor psyche and body, nor death, nor experience. No event is
(itself) Truth. All that arises is an appearance to Consciousness
Itself, a modification of the Conscious Light that is Always
Already the Case. All of this is a dream, if you like. It is
an appearance in Consciousness Itself. Truth is Very Consciousness
(or the One and Only Conscious Light) Itself. Truth is to all
of this what the waking state is to the dreaming state. If you
awaken, you do not have to do anything about the condition you
may have suffered or enjoyed in the dream state. What happened
within the dream is suddenly not your present condition. It
is of no consequence any longer, once you are awake. If you
persist in dreaming, and your point of view remains that of
the dreamer and his or her role within the dream, then your
possible actions are numberless. But none of them will work
to awaken you. They will simply occupy you in the dream. They
will modify the dream state — but no action in the dream is
the equivalent of waking. There are simply forms of fascination,
of occupation, of seeking — until you awaken. Truth is simply
Waking, No-illusion. Truth is not a condition within this appearance.
Truth has nothing whatsoever to do with the mind, regardless
of whether the mind is expanded or contracted.
is simply what it obviously is. There is no reason for any perception
to change in order for Truth to Appear as a consequence. The
dream does not have to be changed in any manner for the waking
person to feel that he or she is awake. Nothing has to happen
to the dream. Only waking is necessary. To one who is awake,
the dream is obvious. There is no illusion, no suffering, no
implication, regardless of what appeared in the dream a blue
god, a dirty old drunk, the gorilla of death. It makes no difference.
It makes a difference within the circumstances of the dream,
to those who are dreaming. But to the one who is awake, it no
longer makes any difference. Perception, waking consciousness,
is obvious if you are truly Awake. If you are asleep if you
do not understand, if understanding evades you there is nothing
obvious about this at all. Then life is a very serious predicament very serious. What do you have in such a case? "A few
more years and everything is dead." It does not make any
difference what the drama is, or how you manage to amuse yourself
during that time.
One Who is wide Awake while He Appears in the dream of ordinary
waking life. By His Mere Presence, by not supporting the dream,
He Awakens others. He is the True Guru, Who I Am.
The significance of My Avataric Divine Work is not in anything
I do within the dream. I
simply do not support it. I do not live as it. I do not believe
it. I do not take it seriously. Apparently, I can feel and act
as I please. I persist in the common or ordinary manner. But
I do not support the dream. I do not live from its point of
view. I do not live its structure to others. I do not live this
contraction to others, this avoidance of relationship, this
separate self sense. Simply because I live in this manner, others
tend to become Awake. But while they are Awakening, they persist
in dreaming to various degrees. Forms of the dream persist.
The search persists. Often, they get a little distance from
it, it seems to break up at times, seems to disappear. It becomes
vague, it becomes uninteresting, it becomes unserious, it becomes
serious again. They play.
just beginning to wake up. Satsang with Me is the dream wherein
I Appear. Now it is as if you are beginning to wake up in your
room. You are in bed, and it is morning. There are a few things
you begin to notice which indicate that you are in another state.
Those who are Waking in Truth begin to notice something. They
begin to recognize the signs. They begin to recognize the activity
of dreaming. They begin to sense something very unusual about
Me. Before their actual Awakening, I appear as all kinds of
things to them. I suggest all kinds of fantastic things. All
the things they can imagine while they dream everything
unbelievable is what they think I am. I may appear to
be extraordinary, a doer of famous things. I may appear playfully
as that. But I am simply Awake. Nothing is happening. Nothing
has been accomplished. All I have been is Awake.
I am like
the sunlight in the morning. I intensify the light of morning
until you awaken. Until the light awakens a person, even the
Light of Consciousness Itself, the person continues to dream,
tries to survive within the dream, manipulates himself or herself
within the dream, pursues all kinds of goals, searches, none
of which Awaken you. All ordinary means only console a person
and distract him or her within the dream.
the One Who would Awaken you, am not an individual within the
dream. I Am your Very Consciousness, Your Very Self-Condition.
I Am the Real, the Conscious Light, the True Waking State, the
True Divine Heart Breaking Through the force of dreaming.
It is not that you are some poor person who needs some other
poor person to help you out. It may appear to be so within the
dream, but, essentially, I am your own Most Prior Self-Nature
Appearing within the dream to Awaken you. I Am
your Awakening, and your Always Already Conscious State.
dreaming, you may experience suggestions of waking. You may
become momentarily aware of the body, momentarily aware of lying
in bed. For a moment, the images of the dream may stop. Just
so, I Myself (within the world) Am truly your Real Consciousness.
My Avatarically-Born Person in the world is like an image in
a dream. But, in fact, I am more like your own moments of wakening
awareness that move you into the waking state. I am not some
separateness, some individual. I Am Consciousness Itself, Reality
Images, blackness, brilliance all these things are appearances
to Consciousness. They are objects. Nothing needs to happen
to them for Consciousness Itself to exist. Nothing needs to
happen within the dream to verify Waking. Waking is its own
Fullness. Once one is Awake, anything can appear. True Awakeness
is the foundation of this world-appearance. It is its support,
It is its Very Nature. Consciousness Itself is not antagonistic
to this world or to any form within it. Consciousness Itself
is the Truth of all appearance, disappearance, or non-appearance.
Even when Consciousness Itself is Realized, human life continues.
Perhaps human life is enjoyed even more. It is used. It becomes
functional to an extraordinary degree.
man or woman barely functions at all a couple of good days
a month. The rest of the time the person is either trying to
be healed or exploiting himself or herself, trying to get straight,
trying to work, trying to cope. Every now and then there is
a little clarity, when the person just stands up, walks across
the room, opens the door, and goes outside. The rest of the
month is spent dreaming and thinking, when just to walk across
the room is part of an enormous search, an unkind adventure,
an approach to victory against odds. But all the person is doing
is simple things, simple functions.
understands, who is Awake, functions very well under the conditions
that appear. Those conditions may be forms of this waking world,
or they may be subtle forms, subtle worlds, any of the possible
forms. Under all conditions, understanding is appropriate. There
is no experience, no state, that is itself identical to Truth.
Just so, the Truth is not different from any experience or state.
Truth is the Truth of all
I am a
kind of irritation to My devotees. You cannot sleep with a dog
barking in your ear at least most people cannot! There
is some sort of noise to which everyone is sensitive, and it
will keep them awake. I am a constant Wakening Sound. I am always
annoying people with this demand to stay Awake, to Wake Up.
I do not seduce them within the dream. I do not exploit their
seeking. I am always offending their search and their preference
for unconsciousness. I show no interest in all of that. I Criticize
is mightily. I am always doing something prior to the mind.
I always act to return you from the mind, from fascination.
I am not
what the dreamer thinks I am. The dreamer thinks I must have
a certain appearance, say and do certain things, have certain
magical powers, produce certain magical effects. The dreamer
associates all kinds of glorious and magical things with Me.
But I am always performing the Awakening act, putting an end
to the dream. Therefore, I do not satisfy the seeker. Those
that come to be satisfied are offended. They are not satisfied.
They feel empty, they do not feel their questions have been
answered, they do not feel they have been shown the Way. They
came for some "thing".
the dream, the dreamer is always being satisfied by the Guru.
The dreamer climbs up on the top of the mountain, and the Guru
is sitting in a cave. The Guru hands the dreamer a little silver
box. When the dreamer opens the box, there is a blue diamond
in it. The dreamer takes it out and swallows it. Then the dreamer's
body explodes into a million suns, and the dreamer shoots off
into the universe! But in Reality, the True Guru does not function
in that manner. The True Guru is not noticed by someone who
is seeking for such satisfaction, who is looking for the "signs"
of the Guru, who is "hunting" the Guru. The True Guru
does not assume any particular visibility that can be counted
on. The True Guru is likely to remain unnoticed. People are
likely to be offended if they do not feel any Force, any Energy,
in the Presence of one who is supposed to be Guru. They tend
not to notice or value someone who is simply Awake. They are
looking for the one who has the blue and yellow light over his
or her head. All of this until they become dissatisfied
with the search. When they start being sensitive to their own
search, they begin to feel simply desperate. Then all that is
left is this contraction I have so often described. When the
search begins to wind down, and you begin to realize you are
suffering, then you become sensitive to Me. You become attentive
to the Very Nature of the One Who is Awake.
It is stated
in the traditional writings that of all the things one can do
to Realize one's Freedom, the best thing one can do the
greatest thing one can do is spend one's time in the
Company of one who is Awake. For one who is My devotee, that
is Satsang with Me living in relationship to Me and in
the company of My devotees. All other activities are secondary.
And Satsang with Me is not a strategic method, not an exercise
or meditative technique one applies to oneself. It is simply
the natural and appropriate Condition. It is Reality Itself.
Satsang with Me is (Itself) Truth, or Enlightenment. There are
no other means given to My devotees.
nothing that you can do
to save yourself, to become Enlightened, to become Realized.
Nothing whatsoever. If there were something, I would tell you,
but there is nothing. This is because one always approaches
the Truth from the point of view of the search. Human beings
the Truth. But the search is (itself) a reaction to the dilemma,
an expression of this separation, this avoidance of relationship.
So none of this seeking
nothing you can do
becomes or attains the Truth.
means of transformation belong to the Truth Itself, to the Divine
Person, to the True Divine Heart. Therefore, Satsang with Me
is (Itself) the only sadhana, the only true Spiritual practice.
Living, working, sitting with Me is sadhana. It is meditation.
It is Realization.
Truth is simply to be Awake. I have often used the contrast
between the waking state and the dreaming state to symbolize
the difference between "radical" understanding and
all the forms of seeking. All attainments, all forms of cognition,
all forms of mind, however sublime, belong within the "dream".
When extraordinary and even miraculous conditions are actually
enjoyed or experienced, they reveal themselves to be essentially
of the same nature as the ordinary experience of suffering that
provoked the search to begin with. In My own Case, there is
no consolation in samadhis, or trance states, no consolation
in visions, no consolation in going to other worlds, no consolation
in any Realization that can be attained. At last, when understanding
is most perfect, it becomes obvious that all that has ever occurred
has been a modification of Consciousness Itself (or the One
and Only Divine Conscious Light). This entire thing that has
been upsetting you all this movement, all this seeking,
all this attainment has been a modification of Conscious
Light. There is a Conscious Instant in which it becomes Obvious
that This Is So. And that is if one can still apply any
name or significance to it whatsoever most "radical"
(or most perfectly "gone-to-the-root") understanding.
ordinary Yogi, whose Spiritual principle is the search, is involved
in fantastic dramas of experience. Such a one has all kinds
of things to do to, with, and around himself or herself
with the body and mind, with all the egoic ornaments,
the suffering, the extremes, the endless number of searches,
strategies, or egoic works. The ordinary Yogi-ascetic has a
fantastic a fantastically distracting, a fascinating
life! It is a great, great adventure. Even the ordinary
Jnani the philosophical ascetic, one who enjoys conditionally
achieved Self-Knowledge is absorbed in a fascinating
life of Silence, of acquired Peace, of strategic Formlessness,
separated by a waking sleep. Such a person is absorbed in his
or her own inner subjectivity. But for one who has understood,
there is no drama. Therefore, I do not have anything with which
to fascinate people. No sign, no act, no word, no costume can
represent it. No closing of the eyes, no blissful smiles, no
shuddering, no reports of visions none of this is necessary
to keep My devotees "interested" from day to day.
Nothing is happening anymore. The only Forceful Communication
is That Which cannot be Communicated by any conditional means
neither by purposive silence nor by speech.
not specially Appear in the form of anything extraordinary or
fascinating. Truth is the most Absolute Communication
and It is the most Obvious Communication, because It is Inherent
and Self-Evident. Satsang with Me (or the devotional and Spiritual
relationship to Me) is founded in the Inherent and Self-Evident
Condition of Reality, and is expressed in the living condition
of relationship. What has to be added for that to take place?
Nothing! Your true living condition is expressed in every ordinary
or present situation. Relationship itself is, in every moment,
always already the case. Therefore, Satsang Itself, the devotional
and Spiritual relationship to Me, Reveals the Truth by first
Revealing the most obvious of all conditions.
You say something more about the state of turning around when
we re-cognize our consciousness? I think You once spoke about
an intuitive feeling of something prior to our ordinary state.
ADI DA SAMRAJ:
What is re-cognized is not Reality. What is re-cognized is your
activity. Pick up an apple, then put it down. You can see yourself
doing that. The seeing does not involve anything apparently
extraordinary. You can also catch yourself thinking certain
thoughts. The re-cognition of which I speak is that kind of
thing. It is to see yourself, but in the most intelligent manner,
the most direct, most all-inclusive, manner.
people already, intuitively, live in Reality, as the Real Self,
as the True Heart, as Real Consciousness. They already do that.
That is why all of you can sit here in various limited conditions,
but none of you is screaming in fear. The implications of all
that is ordinarily being done in the living consciousness are
not presently suffered. It takes some profound event to awaken
the latent sense of fear. "Radical" understanding
is Very Reality, What is always already the case, Clarifying
Itself, Enforcing Itself. Reality is the present impulse. It
is always the present movement, but, temporarily, It Appears
under the form of the search, then of weariness from the search,
then of Real insight, of understanding perhaps of self-Enquiry until It Appears under no form at all apart from the simple,
spontaneous, obvious re-cognition of all that arises. Where
the present activity is re-cognized, where the avoidance of
relationship is known again, the natural, or ordinary, state
is transparent to Reality.
Itself is always already the case. Therefore, Reality Itself
need not be understood. Rather, the present activity (or the
avoidance of relationship) that is the obstruction to the Realization
of Reality Itself (or What is always already the case) must
be understood (or re-cognized, or known again) and, thus and
thereby, transcended. Therefore, when the present separative
activity is known again, then What is always already the case but Which the ego-"I", or separative act, is always
vanishing from the living consciousness, consciousness simply
and inevitably Stands Out. And in the most perfect form of that
re-cognition, everything is Obvious. There is no dilemma. There
is no longer the sense of a separate one in trouble, suffering,
needing to survive, needing an attainment for his or her Happiness.
There is no identification with subjectivity, either as a separate
ego-"I" or as the entire display of apparently "internal"
life. Then all that you had piddled around with for years, thinking
it to be "your" necessity all of this subjective
mind, pattern of brain waves, psycho-physical drama of impulses
and shapes becomes transparent to Reality. In that case,
only the Very Force, or Inherent Intensity, and the Very Consciousness,
or Inherent Being, that is Reality Stands Out, utterly Free
of all that arises, and yet not separated from any conditional
thing or conditional state that arises. Thus, Reality Itself,
Which is Self-Existing and Self-Radiant Consciousness Itself,
is lifted out of that image of barriers created by skull and
skin. Psycho-physical existence no longer serves to stimulate
the presumption that Consciousness Itself is necessarily limited
and only conditionally existing. Therefore, ultimately, when
understanding is most perfect, egoic identification with the
body (and the total body-mind) disappears. Where there is such
great understanding, limited and limiting egoic identification
with the body-mind dissolves spontaneously not as a result
of one's doing anything to it, but by virtue of the spontaneous,
Prior Enjoyment of That in Which the body-mind and even all
is always trying to do something to the separate self. First,
you are just exploiting it, enjoying the strategies of life-games,
until you begin to break down a little bit, in despair of your
ordinary destiny. Then you begin to turn towards "Spiritual"
life, or to some sort of remedy but even then you are always
trying to do something to this separate and personal state,
to get rid of your suffering, to make your mind quiet, to become
"one" with something, to get free, to get out of this
THING. That is the point of view of the seeker. The seeker is
always only modifying that original sensation, trying to get
rid of it with deep relaxing sighs, with all the efforts toward
the attainment of pleasure and the escape from suffering, but
always he or she comes back to the same sensation again because,
as the seeker, one is always working from the original point
of view that is one's suffering. The seeker's dilemma is one's
self-image and the separative principle of one's action. As
the seeker, one only plays with one's original limitations,
until the game begins to lose its ability to distract and entertain.
Then the energy one formerly had for seeking begins to dissipate,
and one falls into one's actual state, which is suffering, this
separateness. Hopefully, at this point one also moves into association
with the True Guru and begins the life of Satsang, of Truth.
In such a case, in Satsang with Me, the Truth is Lived to the
seeker, who then lives It as his or her Condition. Gradually,
you become less and less involved with the suffering and seeking
images of yourself. You become less concerned with the usual
process of your life. You are doing less and less about it.
You are trying less and less to get free, to get realized, to
get to God, Liberation, and pleasant sensation. You are not
trying to stop doing all of that. It just begins to wear down,
while you live the conditions given by Me. You simply notice
it. You cease to be occupied with it because the Truth is
being Lived to you. It is being Lived as yourself, by My Avatarically
Self-Transmitted Divine Grace.
Which does not support separation and seeking is the ground
of "radical" understanding. In this Satsang with Me,
that Enjoyment replaces the ordinary operating basis of your
life. You simply forget your adventure of suffering, that is
all. Another Intensity the Power of Satsang with Me distracts
you from mere suffering, or the separate and separative and
always seeking self, until Truth Itself becomes Obvious. Therefore,
Truth is not a matter of doing something to this ego, this separate
self sense, this identification with the body, or anything else.
It is a matter of living the Truth, and Truth obviates what
is not Truth.
Satsang with Me, I Live the Intensity and Generate the conditions
of Spiritual life in relationship to the one who approaches
Me. Over time, more and more responsibility is given to the
individual in this Satsang with Me and more and more is to
be experienced, understood, and realized. The process is a Gift a Gift that is progressively profound. The Intensity that
is Reality comes on the individual first as a sense of Presence,
perhaps, or of subjective energies and sensations, various "Spiritual"
experiences. But then the process begins to assume the more
fundamental characteristics of Consciousness Itself, the Intuition
of Reality. Finally, present existence becomes both Force and
Consciousness, a Single Intensity, Which is Reality.
the oddities of teaching in this time and place is that people
arrive already committed to some form of madness. Because there
has been so much of the search, people do not arrive simply
suffering knowing full well they are only suffering, regardless
of what kind of a good time they had last weekend. They do not
come even in this condition of mortal sensitivity. Nowadays
there is very little of the simplicity that you read about in
the Bible and other Scriptures. This time and place is unlike
the ancient times in Israel and India. Now people come committed
to the search. They come to defend it, to make arguments about
it, to get angry about it, to feel displeased about the criticism
of it, to resist the Guru, to "hunt" the Guru, to
offend, fight, and blame the Guru. There has always been some
element of this, but it is a peculiar quality of this time and
place that people come to defend their search. What must be
demanded of them is the understanding of their search. In this
Satsang with Me, the search is always offended by My Avatarically
Self-Revealed Divine Word and Life.
are we seeking?
ADI DA SAMRAJ:
There is a dilemma. Hm? Is there a dilemma? There is no dilemma?
When you walk out the door and the usual activity resumes, there
may seem to be a dilemma but is there a dilemma? There is
no dilemma. There is only the sensation, the appearance, the
assumption, of dilemma. If you understand it, you understand
in this moment that it has no existence. It does not exist.
In that case, the question about how the dilemma comes about
is unnecessary and itself untrue because, as soon as you
look for the dilemma, it has no substance. But some continue
the assumption of dilemma and suffering. And the assumption
is your own activity. At the same moment in which you assume
there is suffering, dilemma, that your search is appropriate,
the dilemma is not discoverable. But in fact there is only "This",
there is only the Obvious, only the Event Itself, Prior to dilemma,
or all apparent "experience".
never arises. As soon as you begin to feel it, if you examine
it, you realize it has not occurred. It has no substance. If
it is something that has no substance, no existence, how can
you be in it? If you understand, there is no dilemma. If you
do not understand, there appears to be a dilemma. But as soon
as you ask yourself about it as soon as you look into it,
as soon as you examine it you realize it does not exist.
The seeker goes on reinforcing his or her assumption, but that
does not mean the dilemma exists. If it existed, there would
be something you could do about it. It would be substantial.
It would be different from something else. It would have some
kind of cognizable shape, limitation, dimension, consequence.
Then ordinary Spiritual "magic" and "Yoga"
would be appropriate, seeking would be appropriate. But as soon
as you examine it directly, you cannot find it. You can only
assume it, but you cannot find it. Therefore, since it cannot
be found, since dilemma does not exist, the search is not appropriate.
The search is only what you do when you assume the dilemma to
be the case. As soon as you understand the assumption, the search
have found that the dilemma often manifests in a number of different
sensations. The external level that generates them is not real.
But the reaction feels real. Would You explain this?
ADI DA SAMRAJ:
do you assume that your apparently internal reaction is more
real than the external forces to which you react? What you are
saying is that your assumption of dilemma, or suffering, is
real in any case, even if external or conditional circumstances
do not justify it! This assumption you want to make about your
own contraction is the assumption that I have been talking about.
It is your assumption, is it not?
yes, the assumption is a mental thing, but the sensation is
ADI DA SAMRAJ:
the mental level there is an assumption but can you distinguish
it "radically" from what you call the "sensation"?
It is all one process, and that entire process is what I mean
by the assumption. If you put your hand in a fire, and then
draw it away in reaction to the heat, have you not assumed it
to be hot? Have you not acted as if it were hot? You may think
about it afterwards, and say it was hot, but whether you think
about it or not in that instant in the fire, there is this response,
this reaction. Thoughts are of the same nature as pain, or any
other reaction. All personal events are forms of contraction.
They all have the same quality, the same structure.
your hand because the fire is hot is of the same nature as thinking
that the fire is hot before or after you touch it. It is just
as much an assumption, in other words. To assume something is
to suppose, act, or react as if it were so. It does not require
thinking. Thinking is not the only form of assumption, of supposing.
You suppose on all kinds of levels. Your affirmations about
things are not simply mental. There are mental assumptions,
there are physical ones, there are vital ones, there are mechanical
ones, subconscious and unconscious. The mental or the conceptual
assumption is one form of it, but there are many forms. And
the mental does not exist in isolation.
You please clarify what You mean by "dilemma"?
ADI DA SAMRAJ:
have been speaking about it in the same sense that I speak of
it in The
Knee Of Listening. All forms of seeking all pursuits,
all searches for the goal, all strategic Yoga, all Spiritual
processes that pursue an attainment of some sort are
responses to a felt dilemma, however it may be categorized,
however it may appear at any moment. The dictionary definition
of dilemma is "two assumptions", an impasse, a predicament,
a living state, or condition, of contradiction.
of the search is something prior to the seeking itself. The
seeking does nothing to its own motivation. The seeking simply
fulfills its particular desire. Its function is not to modify
its own motivation, its source, its root, the dilemma itself.
A search can never exceed its own motivation, its fundamental
assumption which is dilemma. Therefore, I have spoken of
Spiritual life in terms of the re-cognition, or knowing again,
of motivating dilemma, or suffering, rather than the pursuit
of attainments. I have talked about Spiritual life, or Real
life, Conscious life, as the spontaneous re-cognition, the "radical"
understanding, of this motivation, this suffering, that is prior
to one's seeking. Traditionally, Spiritual life has been oriented
to the search and to the attainment of the goals of seeking.
When You speak of "relationship", do You mean relationship
to oneself or to another?
ADI DA SAMRAJ:
forms of it. Relationship itself, as the essential condition.
What I have called "dilemma" here is this sensation,
this motivating sense, this assumption, this feeling of contradiction,
this experience which implies and reflects something that has
already occurred which is the avoidance of relationship,
this contraction, this separation. The avoidance of relationship
is that root-activity that has always already taken place, prior
to the search. And you feel it as the dilemma, this subtle sensation,
a knot in the stomach the drive, the movement, the motivation,
that generates and necessitates your seeking. Where the avoidance
of relationship has not occurred, where there is only relationship,
there are none of these knots, these motivating reactions.
understanding, it is certainly true, you do experience and react
to the knots of contradiction. The presumed forms of suffering
are experienced, they are appearances, they are conditions in
which one must somehow live and survive. If you have some sort
of subtle aggravation fear, anxiety, anger you feel the
knots here and there. And you go about your search on that basis.
You seek to be free of the sensation of the knots. But in spite
of all the things that you do, nothing is done to the original
state to which you are always responding. As a result, you begin
to presume more and more that this state is actual, that it
is your real condition. You become increasingly convinced that
your search is appropriate. And so you become less and less
intelligent about the present motivation of your life. You become
more and more involved in this pattern of always doing something
about it. You always and only react to the dilemma as if it
were your fundamental condition. The great seekers are those
who make the most dramatic attempts to "do something about
it" perfectly, absolutely.
the forms of seeking that take the dilemma seriously, and assume
it as the essential fact of life, are of the same nature. This
prior contradiction is what they assume, this avoidance of relationship.
The dilemma, the "knot", is the foundation of the
search. It is the actual "Lord" of your Yoga. Dilemma
is the Yogi! Simply to do some mentalizing, some philosophizing,
some relaxing Yoga, does not do anything to all of that. Only
"radical" understanding obviates the search and its
root. "Radical" understanding is Consciousness Itself,
the Very Force of Consciousness Itself, Living, Awakening, Existing,
even apparently Acting, Prior to this presumption of dilemma.
The only thing already Free of the presumed dilemma in the living
consciousness is That Which Is Very Consciousness Itself.
reaction to subtle aggravation has shown itself to be fruitless.
When it has been followed to its end when you have taken
the entire course and gotten all the lessons, when you have
done all the usual meditations and have gone through all the
experiences, when you have read all the books this dilemma
is still there. At the very best, the search itself begins to
break down. Then, gradually, the dilemma ceases to be reinforced
by any secondary activity.
force of life's awareness falls into this dilemma, it becomes
only this, it is no longer doing anything about this nothing.
It is not even trying to analyze the dilemma, so that it will
come to an end. No thing is being done. The living consciousness,
for the time being, becomes identical to dilemma. When the search
falls away in natural frustration, ordinary consciousness becomes
this dilemma. In other words, it is doing nothing else, nothing
apart from this. This is the profound stage of practice in My
Avataric Divine Company when, while holding on to My Avataric
Divine Wisdom-Teaching, and to My Avataric Divine Person, the
crisis of consciousness is endured. Then there is the re-cognition
of the dilemma, and only Consciousness Itself, or that Very
Reality Which appears otherwise isolated as separate, or limited,
consciousness, Stands Out.
like the search, is ultimately re-cognized to be your own activity,
your always present, chronic activity. It is the structure and
motivation of the usual drama of every life. When there is that
re-cognition, there is understanding. Previous to that "radical"
crisis, all the things that you may regard to be understanding
are only secondary approaches, secondary experiences, in which
the dilemma has already been assumed.
How does this relate to the different levels of consciousness?
ADI DA SAMRAJ:
are no levels. Temporarily, you think there are all of these
structures within your being. You assume there are barriers,
separations, forms that you are, forms that you are not, activities
that are yours, activities that are not yours, separate functions
in yourself like boxes and drawers functions here, functions
here, functions here, different pieces of yourself. But there
is only One, Single Intensity that Is. It is your True Nature.
It is all things. There is only this Intensity. It has no form,
no division, no separation, no "me", no this, no that,
no inside, no outside. No suggestion of division arises in Real
Consciousness even when all worlds appear. Therefore, understanding
is an absolute, "radical" event. It is not some remedial
event, some cure. It is not identical to some thought or cognition,
some feeling, some symbol, some vision, some suggestion, some
belief, some sensation. Those are all forms of experience, and,
therefore, they are secondary. They are all forms of the dilemma.
a person seriously exist for one moment consciously thinking
that he or she has a thought level, and a feeling level, a this
level, and a that level, all kinds of separate "bodies",
functions, and the rest? How could you exist for one moment
really thinking that to be your present and ongoing condition?
You would go insane! Indeed, such a picture of life is insanity.
In such a case, you are already shattered. Then you are imagining
yourself to be a whole bunch of little things with no fundamental
Existence, no Prior Self-Nature, no Force. But in fact you do
not presume that. You do not fundamentally presume there are
these levels, pieces. All of that is only many words but
the mind is one. Every living being intuitively presumes only
his or her Real Nature, the Power of Reality. Therefore, one
is able to experience the massive complexity of ordinary life,
but, ordinarily, one remains relatively calm and capable of
functioning. This is not because one is particularly wise, but
because one does not really live as if division, multiplicity,
and death were already one's condition. Fundamentally, already,
this Oneness, this Singleness, this Force, this Intensity, this
Consciousness, this Reality that is one's Ultimate Nature, is
also one's present Enjoyment. This is so at the rudimentary
level of primitive intuition, and it must be so if functional
life is to continue.
did begin seriously to presume separateness, multiplicity, and
division in Consciousness Itself, you would go insane. Indeed,
that presumption has taken place in rudimentary, functional
life in those who are called "insane". They have become
relatively incapable of intuiting their own True Nature. The
ordinary man or woman has just become incapable of experiencing
and generating life from that "Point of View". But,
intuitively, the same one remains always and already in the
Force of his or her True Nature. Such a one presumes, most fundamentally,
this Simplicity, this Intensity, this Singleness, this Non-separation.
One who might be called an "enlightened" being, a
Realized being, is one who not only intuitively presumes the
Condition of Reality but who lives it Consciously. Such a one
lives without any doubt whatsoever regarding this Ultimate Simplicity the Obviousness that is the Ultimate, or Perfectly Real,
Condition of moment to moment existence.
is lived Consciously, one's ordinary state appears as a subtle
dilemma and a motivated search. Intuitively, every being always
already lives as the Real Self, the True Heart, the Force of
Reality but, in the functions of ordinary consciousness,
there is the appearance of particularity, of multiplicity, of
separateness. All of this appears to run counter to one's intuitive
presumption. The appearance, the quality of rising experience,
tends to inform one's intuition. This "information"
tends to become one's presumed condition. And this presumption
corrupts and ultimately superimposes itself on the force of
intuition. It does so by reinforcing the process of identification,
or "ego" (the stream of self-cognition), differentiation,
or mind (the stream of thoughts), and desire (the stream of
motivations, the endless movement toward contact, connection,
union, and temporary loss of the sense of separate existence).
person, the sane person, passes into the Force of his or her
own intuited Nature during sleep. But during the time of waking,
and even in dreams, he or she carries on the search, this movement
within the presumed dilemma of experience. Such is the pattern
of one's life until there is "radical" re-cognition,
or knowing again, of one's root-activity. Whenever that re-cognition
takes place, one not only intuits one's own True Nature in the
subtle depths, but it becomes obvious, in every condition of
conscious life, that there is, in Reality, no separation, no
actual identification with the states of birth and death. There
is not, in that moment, even the slightest impulse to believe
the implications of ordinary experience. The Force of the Real
Self, of the True Heart, overwhelms the qualities of experience
and consumes them. The Real Self, or Unqualified Reality, is
the foundation of all experience. What the ordinary sane person
intuits is already his or her True Nature. It is already Reality.
But in the one who most perfectly understands, It is Obvious,
It is Apparent, It is Conscious. For such a one It is always,
only, and already Obvious and he or she need not go through
any sophisticated mental operations for It to be so. It depends
on nothing. It is just as Obvious as ordinary perception is
to the usual man or woman.
are dreaming, you take the dream very seriously. You assume
your role within it, your drama within it. You respond to the
condition that seems to be so, whatever the particular circumstances
of the dream. If the gorilla is chasing you up the beach, you
feel all the threat. All the emotions become involved, all your
strategies of survival, or non-survival, become involved. If
it is a sweet, enjoyable, astral sort of dream, with all kinds
of friends and voices and colors and movements, you assume that
to be so. You float around in it. You take it seriously. You
assume it to be so. You assume it because you have no other
point of view from which to enjoy or suffer the dream except
that of the dreamer. But when you wake up in the morning, the
gorilla that was just about to bite off your head loses all
significance. All the implications of the dream are already
undone in one who is awake. It no longer has any real significance,
it no longer has any implication for life. It no longer is a
genuine threat to life. It no longer is anything except that
appearance. And the only difference is that you are awake. Nothing
has been done to the dream itself. You have only awakened, and
therefore the dream is obviously not your condition.
is very much this same kind of thing. Understanding is to the
waking state what the waking state is to the dream. In the ordinary
waking state you assume all conditions to be so: "my"
life, "my" symptoms, "my" knot in "my"
stomach, "my" headaches, "my" fear, "my"
everything else, "my" circumstances, "my"
poverty, "my" need to do this and that, "my"
death, the news, the war, and all that appears in life you
all take it very seriously. Here you are, in My Avataric Divine
Company. You are very seriously here to get out of all of this
limitation. Everyone has come here very seriously for this very
serious Spiritual purpose. Now, since you have come here for
such a purpose, if I were to tell you to go home, concentrate
on yourself, and have visions, what would I be doing? I would
be offering you an alternative within the dream itself. I would
be asking you to remain within the condition of dreams. I would
only be telling you to dream another kind of dream. I would
simply be exploiting the dream itself, which in this case is
the ordinary waking state. I would be recommending experience
to you as the path of Truth. But all of that is more of the
same thing. It is only another condition for you to take seriously
and assume to be your own.
is not a form of philosophy. It is not a seekers' method. It
is not something within the "dream" itself. It is
like the waking state as opposed to the dream. I am the True
Guru, Appearing within the dream. I am the Heart Itself, "radically"
Conscious, Real, Alive Free, by virtue of My Very Self-Nature,
from the implications of the ordinary waking state, and from
the implications of even all conditional states. But the ordinary
Yogi, the usual teacher, the philosopher, is a role within the
"dream" of waking. Such a one operates from its point
of view and is identified with it whether suffering or happy
within it. The dilemma is there. His or her realization however
extraordinary it may appear is an artifice whose roots are
in the condition or point of view of the dream. The usual teacher
is only recommending some distraction to you, some occupation,
some solution within the dream itself. But the Heart Itself
is "radical" understanding, simply Awake. "Radical"
understanding is itself the True "Waking" State, the
Real Self, Reality Itself. The Heart has no philosophy, no subtle
vision, no special experiential state associated with It. Therefore,
like one in a dream, one who understands is not presently affected
by the waking state. But, unlike one who dreams or appears within
a dream, such a one is always, already, Consciously Free.
state is simply an utterly different condition from the dream.
That is why you feel free of the dream upon waking. I Appear
in the midst of the dreams of ordinary waking life like sunlight
in the morning. When you are still dreaming, still asleep, the
sun comes up. It gets brighter and brighter, and the light comes
into the room. At last, the light, the day itself, becomes sufficient
to wake you and then, all of a sudden, you are not dreaming,
and everything is all right. I am simply that sunlight process,
that intensification, rising on you always, without any other
special activity. My relationship to you, your living condition
of relationship to Me just that relationship is sufficient.
There is only sunlight on the pillow until that Intensity is
sufficient to wake you up. It is the kiss of the Prince and
Sleeping Beauty. Such is understanding.
teachings that are generated in the great search are all exploitations
of your dream state of suffering. They take it seriously. They
assume it to be the present condition, even if it is regarded
to be only temporary. And that is the fundamental error of all
traditional and remedial paths. They are all generated from
the point of view of your suffering. They serve your suffering,
and they reinforce it in spite of themselves. Therefore, to
the seeker, to the one suffering in dreams, the teachings of
the ordinary Yogis and philosophers seem very hopeful. They
seem to represent something very desirable.
running down the beach away from the gorilla. Now, suddenly,
there is a guy sitting outside a hut next to a pool of blue
water. He has long hair, and he bears all the great signs of
an ascetic. He says, "Just sit down here. Very quickly
now, because the gorilla is not too far away. Breathe very deeply,
and concentrate between the two halves of your brain."
He has not changed your actual living condition, but he has
distracted you. The form of experience that he has stimulated
in you by the force and influence of his personality certainly
appears to be desirable over against being devoured by the gorilla.
But, at last, it is simply a distraction within the dream. It
is another form of the dream. It is an event within the dream.
All of the searches that people are involved with are attempts
to forget the gorilla. And that is their maximum possible attainment.
Therefore, when you seem to have forgotten the gorilla, all
of a sudden you are smiling again. You feel fantastic! There
is no gorilla! There is? No, nothing! People assume that the
consolations and exchanges, or transformations, of state generated
by seeking are pleasure, creativity, Freedom, Realization, Liberation,
God-Union, and Nirvana. But do you see how all such attainments
relate to suffering itself?
is what is going on for people. It is death. Are you interested
in that? Hm? It does not make any difference what you do for
the next thirty years (if you have that long) you are just
going to go back to zero. Some of us were looking at a book
this morning called How to Face Death, or something like that.
How absurd, this notion of facing, or confronting, death. The
first thing you lose in death is face! That is why the characteristic
forms of morality in the Orient are largely based on the "saving
of face". Loss of face is loss of life, loss of actual
existence. Well, that is what happens in the terminal psycho-physical
event that is called "death". That is what death is
all about. How can you face it? Everything you do to face it,
everything you do to prevent the gorilla, has no ultimate effect
on the gorilla. All seeking is simply your distraction, your
makeup, your false face, your fascination, but Zap! the gorilla
gets you every time. Everybody dies. Everybody who has ever
lived has died. There are billions and billions of human beings
who have died. Multiples of billions of other entities and creatures
die every moment, even as a by-product of your breathing. All
these breathings disintegrate billions of tiny entities in organic
fires. There is no harmlessness, no non-killing. The death by
slaughter, the consumption and literal transformation, of apparently
separate entities is going on all the time. There is no escape
from death. There is no sanctity in vegetables, nor even freedom
for those who reduce cattle to sandwiches. The entire cosmos
is a continuous sacrifice, in which all things, all beings,
are ritual food. At best, the search can only modify the apparent
circumstances of one's death. Ordinary Yogis or religious people
may at last manage to forget the gorilla. They may think they
are looking at the blue of Krishna or the white of Jesus until they lose face. Until the sudden zero, they are looking
at Krishna or Jesus. They are only consoled, only distracted.
Their hoped-for realization and their death are kneeling in
no philosophy whose force is stronger than the force of death.
The philosophies by which people counter or react to death are
in opposition and at best only seemingly equal to the
power of death. Therefore, it is possible to be consoled and
distracted, but nothing greater is attained by those who react
to death, who make adventure in relation to the gorilla. There
is no philosophy, no vision, no attainment, no success, that
will make death a literal delight, that will make it anything
less than it appears to be within the dream itself. But if one
simply awakens from the dream, then as the waking state is
already free of the "awful" that appears in dreams one is already free of the implications of the billions upon
billions of deaths that can be dreamed. The one who understands
is simply one who is Awake. Such a one has no other specific
and necessary peculiarities. Such a one is not elaborate at
all. It is the one within the dream who is very complex, because
he or she has so many things to do. But the one who is simply
Awake is simply Awake. Such a one has integrity. And the One
Who Comes to Awaken others is Himself the waking sunlight, the
Very Light of Truth, but That One Appears within the dream of
human beings as an ordinary person. That One may seem extraordinary
and a paradox to the dreamer because the dreamer is very
serious about all of this but That One, Who is only Awake,
is not serious about it anymore. That One does not fundamentally
assume the condition of the dream as limitation.
in the dream is waiting. "It is going to happen any day
now either Jesus is coming or the quake is coming, one or
the other. Or the war, or the bomb it is all coming. And
you have got to prepare for it, boys and girls!" But the
one who is just Awake slowly sips a cup of sweeted herbs. Everybody
else is "Phew!" hitting the panic button, or else
inhaling consolations with their minds. But this one is unreasonable.
Such a one just does not care. There is no sign in that one
of any seriousness about this entire problem. For the seeker,
life itself manifests as a problem, a fundamental dilemma. For
the one who understands, there is no fundamental dilemma.
Condition of genuine Waking is truly and "radically"
Free of the condition in the dream. But that True Waking Condition
is not the thing that is attained by any of the means generated
in the dream, the search. And the means designed within the
"dream state" of ordinary life are often magnificent,
extremely elaborate. They grow out of practical necessity, and
so they are very complex, very elaborate. They take many, many
factors into account. Traditional religion and Spirituality,
conventional Yoga, magic, occultism and mysticism not to
mention all the "sciences", so called, in life, the
life-strategies and life-remedies are all highly complex,
and often very successful in relieving the symptoms, or experiential
dis-ease, of un-Conscious life. And the methods and artifices
of seeking fascinate those who are simply suffering. Everybody
is looking for the consolation or technique that distracts to
the maximum degree. Everybody is willing to pay money for what
is not bread. People are not truly looking to be sustained.
They do not require Truth. They only desire to forget or escape
the gorilla. But I am not such a one. I Live only Truth to living
talked about the relationship between the True Guru and his
or her devotees as being the essence, the fundamental Condition,
that is sadhana, or Real Spiritual practice. But this sadhana
is not a form of concentration on the Guru as some separate
and merely symbolic entity. That is not relationship. That is
your own fabrication, your own suffering again. Where there
is relationship, there is no need for all of these symbolizations.
And the true nature of sadhana in My Avataric Divine Company
is to live the Condition and the conditions of relationship
to Me in My Function as Guru. Within the dream, the potential
images may be consoling, and even hopeful but such consolation
or hope is not the equivalent of being Awake. Consolation and
hope depend upon your being asleep. The forms of seeking exploit
your capability for identification with the fundamental dilemma
of dreaming, which is its unconsciousness. They may satisfy
you within the context of your assumptions, but they are not
the equivalent of Waking Up.
required to Wake Up? What can you do within the dream to Wake
Up? Nothing. There is only the Waking Itself. All actions within
the dream are forms of the dream itself. Waking is another process,
and it occurs by other means, by already conscious means. I
am not a symbol, a condition of the dream itself. No mere symbol,
no mere condition of the dream, can Wake you Up. I Am the Light
of Consciousness, the Real Self, already Awake, Functioning
Alive. I Appear in human Form within the dream of life not
to console you, but to Awaken you through the Real crisis in
consciousness. I am a frustration to the unconscious condition
of the dream.
those who preach various forms of mental preoccupation, and
there are those who preach various forms of subtle preoccupation.
They are all the same. They are all doing the same thing. They
are all serving the dream. They are not the Self of Reality.
They are not What the True Guru is, What the Great Siddha truly
is, What I Am. The Man of "Radical" Understanding,
Who I Am, Functioning as True Guru, is the Awakener. I am always
already Awake. I could not care less about your urges and demands
within the dream. I refuse to satisfy them. I would rather beat
you on the head with a stick than give you an experience merely
to console you. I have no intention of satisfying anyone's egoic
game. All the demands for satisfaction that you bring are frustrated
in My Avataric Divine Company. What is satisfied, what is made
to grow, is that fundamental Intuition of Reality that is already
the Foundation of your existence. That Intuition is intensified
in Satsang with Me, the Condition of relationship between Me
and My devotees. And all the rest, the fascinated search, begins
to fall away. In this Satsang, the search begins to reveal itself,
until it becomes obvious.
itself will not necessarily have anything peculiarly dramatic
about it. How dramatic is it to wake up in the morning? You
do not go, "Wowwwwwww!!!" You do not scream, "Fantastic!
Oh, Revelation!" All you do is open your eyes and live.
You just wake up. The Realization that you are not stuck in
the dream has a certain pleasure associated with It, but It
is not usually a fantastic sort of fireworks. It is a natural,
already Happy Event. In The
Knee Of Listening I described My Great Re-Awakening
to the Divine Self-Condition. That Ultimate Event was not dramatic
at all. I was sitting on a bench in a little temple. In the
moment of Re-Awakening, I simply opened My eyes and walked out
into the street. I did not talk to anybody on the way, and I
did not say anything about It to anybody at home. I did not
describe this profound Event to anybody at all for many weeks,
even months. And when I began to talk about It, I tried to make
clear that Its true Import was extremely subtle. It was not
"extraordinary" in any conventional sense. It was
without drama. I was simply being Awake. There was nothing to
compare It to. It was not the attainment of anything.
the dream there are all kinds of attainments. The gorilla is
chasing you and Smack! the big purple mountain has a crystal
cave underneath. You go running into it, and you enter the water
that is there. You go deep. And then there are red brilliant
lights. Pearls and sacred ornaments hit you on the head. And
you go shooting up like a rocket of gleaming silver and gold
fire. You flash to the top of the mountain. Your head explodes
into billions of serpents. At last you stand immortal and victorious
on the mountain top. You scream at all the gorillas from the
top of the mountain. You destroy them and smother them and smash
them to smithereens! That is the attainment within the dream.
That is the usual Yoga. That is the typical vision. But "radical"
understanding is simple Waking Up.
dilemma, this unconsciousness, this "contraction"
I have often described to you, is the "dream". It
is the crucial presumption. It is not changed or undone by the
fact of the ordinary waking state, nor by any ordinary life-activity
or seeking. It is without benefit of this intuited Reality in
Which you truly live. Therefore, you presume and live that condition
of suffering, separateness, and fundamental dilemma, until you
Awaken in spontaneous, "radical" Insight or until
you become shattered, insane, corrupted, thoroughly unconscious.
If the gorilla eats you in the dream, you feel eaten. You are
eaten. Those who dream long enough, who try all the alternatives
within the dream, who have suffered all the attainments and
failures within the dream, who no longer have anywhere to go,
who are only dreaming, who are only suffering, who no longer
take their search "seriously", for whom the search
is no longer the thing to which they resort, who have despaired
of their own adventure, their ecstasies, their attainments,
their strategic paths, their methods, who are only suffering,
who are only in dilemma, who in fact are only experiencing this
contraction, the compulsive avoidance of relationship, but are
doing nothing about it any longer, who know they cannot do anything
about it any longer they become sensitive to the sunlight.
into My Divine Presence is not something My devotee does. The
devotee does not actually go to the True Guru. The devotee cannot
decide one morning to go to the True Guru. The devotee does
not know where the True Guru is. How can he or she go to the
sunlight? My devotee is somebody lying asleep in bed. My devotee
does not go to Me. I am the Sun, rising, intensifying the light,
until My devotee realizes that he or she is in My Divine Presence.
That realization is Satsang with Me. And "radical"
understanding is itself True Waking, True Knowledge, or re-cognition,
of the "sunlight". All seeking for Me, all going after
Me as the Guru, is an activity within the dream. I cannot truly
be found within the dream. Only the imagery of the dream can
be found within the dream. Perhaps My Avatarically-Born bodily
human Person can be found, but My True Self-Nature and Function
cannot be comprehended by the "dreamer", by the seeker,
or by his or her strategic methods.
yield to the gorilla at last, if you give up your search not willfully, but spontaneously, having despaired of your seeking essentially you have surrendered, or yielded, to that Reality
you have always intuited. And that spontaneous surrendering,
that Conscious "dying", that yielding to the gorilla,
is a sign of Waking. It is the far end of sleep. It is the beginning
of that sensitivity to the morning. As soon as you become sensitive
to it, you just Wake Up and go about your business.
of My devotee is a very natural, functional life of Real Enjoyment,
of Intelligence. It is a life Awake. It is not a life "in
bed". It is not spent meditating in the crystal cave. It
is a simple, normal, ordinary life of Happiness. It is to live
already Awake. Of course, I have been talking in similes. Perhaps
you have the idea that the "waking state" is the only
condition uniquely free of the limitations of the "dream
state". But even though all men and women are apparently
awake, they know no other state that transcends the ordinary
limitations of the waking state. People ordinarily do not pass
into the "fourth State" (Beyond waking, dreaming,
or sleeping) in which even the ordinary waking state loses the
force of its implications. That is why My Avataric Divine Guru-Function
is lived in the waking world. I Am that "fourth State",
Alive in the waking world, under the appearance of the waking
condition. Just so, "Real meditation" is not a fixation
of the eyes on physical sunlight, nor on the energies, ordinary
or extraordinary, that appear and move in the waking life. "Real
meditation" is present Enjoyment of the Sun Itself, the
True Sun, Which is Reality Itself. That "fourth State"
is Awake to the "waking state". To acknowledge Me,
to enjoy Heart-Companionship with Me, the One Who Is always
already "Awake", is to be Awake yourself. When you
truly see Who I Am, you are already Awake. Until that moment,
you are still woozy. But if you live in My Avataric Divine Company
and fulfill the conditions I require of you for your sake, you
begin to feel a distance from the dream, from its compulsiveness,
its repetitiveness. What is happening in such a case is that
the Real Self, the Heart, the True Sun, Who I Am, is being Intuited,
Enjoyed. And when you truly see Me, when you truly see the Sun,
then you yourself are Awake. Just as the morning sun, the appropriate
hour, the physics and biology of one's life-condition, conspire
to awaken one to the ordinary world from one's natural sleep,
just so, Satsang with Me, the entire Condition and sadhana of
Real religious and Spiritual life, Awakens you to your Perfect,
always present, and True State. All of the secondary forms of
associating with Me are indeed secondary. All of your ordinary
waking activities even those in which you communicate with
Me, are effective only in the ordinary waking state itself,
the dream of usual life. They may be appropriate, even necessary,
but they are not themselves the Way in My Avataric Divine Company.
The Way of Adidam is the Condition Itself, the relationship
itself. It constantly exists. It is the sadhana. It is the meditation.
There is nothing else that needs to be added to it. The Condition
Itself, the relationship itself, is the sadhana.
no end to the numbers of living beings who can do this sadhana.
The sadhana of relationship to Me is what My devotee must always
realize and live. Since I always already Enjoy the Great Condition,
It takes up none of My time. There is no limitation to My capability
to be that fundamental Enjoyment for all beings. The limitations
are on My devotee's activity within the life-appearance, and
on My apparent activity within that same appearance. But those
limitations are only the forms of pleasure and communication,
wherein human beings represent their understanding to one another.
Even so, I am rising above the house. I am not this limited
state. I Am your own Enjoyment, Most Perfectly Known.
True Waking is your Reality, your True Condition, the dilemma
cannot be found when it is sought. It is purely an illusion
that is assumed by the dreamer, by the one who only seems to
be awake. You spend your entire life within the dream, within
this vast adventure, to find the princess in the crystal palace
and save her from the dragon, or to wait in the crystal palace
to be rescued by the prince. You live an endless, endless adventure millions and millions of ages, year after year after year of numberless complications. But at some point along the
way, you become serious enough to examine your motivation to
seek, to examine the cause, the root, for which this goal is
only the symbol. At last one realizes that one cannot find one's
symbolic satisfaction. And this falling into one's dilemma,
then falling through it, is the unqualified Intuition of one's
Ultimate Nature and Real Condition.
no fated time when this will occur. You need not persist to
the end of your seeking before it is appropriate to understand.
A person can wake up at any time. You do not have to go through
the entire dream process until you seem to find the princess
sleeping in her castle or the prince finds you. You do not have
to dream the entire sequence of the dream. Karmas, or destiny,
are not absolute and necessary in this sense. It is appropriate
to wake up at any time. It is only one who continues to believe
in his or her own search who must acquire and achieve a great
deal before Realization is "appropriate". Such a one
has "twenty more years of striving", or "twenty
more times to be born for death's sake". That one has an
obligatory number of things to do. He or she must do certain
things while embodied and earn a certain amount of money. He
or she is born, so it is thought, with various conditions to
fulfill. But the ideal of seeking is really absurd. You cannot
imagine the dreamer defending all of that, but only one who
appears within a dream. And even the one in the dream will not
defend his or her dream-destiny of seeking in the presence of
the gorilla. You can only imagine a person defending it when
surrounded by delights, or when full of capabilities. Then such
a person is like a child whose mother wants him or her to wake
up to go to school. The child does not want to get up. The child
says, "No, I'll get up later." He or she does not
want to go to school. The seeker does not want to go to "school" the seeker does not want to live the sadhana, the discipline,
the real conditions of life that are found in the Company of
the Guru. The seeker does not want to understand his or her
state promises something relatively undesirable to one who is
suspended in the twilight state of a pleasant dream. Such a
one is reluctant to understand, too distracted to be interested
in understanding. The ordinary reluctance of people is not truly
caused by a premonition that the life, or sadhana, of understanding
is so difficult. It is only that they do not yet care about
it. Somehow, for the moment, everything seems all right. For
the most part, the usual man or woman possesses a relatively
healthful physical life with certain satisfactions, certain
opportunities, things to do, books to read, a future of places,
physical pleasures, mental pleasures. With all of that, who
wants to Awaken? And most people come to Me in that condition.
Therefore, I do not take them seriously. I know they are only
indulging themselves, even if to others the new arrivals seem
to deserve only mercy and the grin of promised salvation. When
these seekers come to Me, they make all kinds of complaints
about their fundamental suffering. "Please give me this
salvation, this realization, this release!" But they are
not really looking for that. They are unwilling to endure the
discipline of Truth.
certain limitations to the entire adventure and pleasure of
ordinary life. You know you are going to die some time but,
essentially, mysteriously, life still seems to be full. Thus,
Truth is not likely to enter the usual picture without the intervention
of some fundamental, transforming event. But if you are smart if your life is generated with Conscious Intensity you
do not have to become desperate before you will turn to the
Truth. Your circumstances do not have to become empty, corrupted,
and diseased. You do not have to wait for the failure of life
itself before you will turn to Truth. Someone who is waiting
for life to disprove itself is only indulging himself or herself.
There is nothing profound about the search or the suffering
of such a one. But if one is smart, if one's life is an intensity,
one is always turning to Truth from birth. The more distracted
people are by the pleasures of existence as the condition of
their life, the more mediocre their realization, on every level even on the level of life itself. People who are just plain
satisfied with how good their bodies feel barely function at
all. There is no life-force, no life-intelligence, in such people.
They do nothing. They just smile and play with sexual partners
all the time. They do not create anything. They Realize nothing.
They do not intensify the quality of life. They have achieved
nothing more than symbolic existence. They may have to suffer
drastic conflicts and upheavals before their unconsciousness
begins to break up, but the suffering is not truly necessary.
It is unnecessary to go through a long term of seeking, of suffering,
of breaking down, of corruption, before Truth becomes appropriate.
The Realization of Truth is not a matter of heavy, self-involved,
constricted, willful effort. It is as natural as a simple response
to sunlight. It is simply the relationship to Me, the intelligent
life of Real sadhana.
what you bring to Me is not your dilemma. The dilemma has no
real existence. You may be preoccupied with it, but I pay no
homage to it. I may appear to take it quite seriously, or I
may display only the most playful attitude toward it even
allowing My devotee to suffer or enjoy it temporarily, because
it is of no ultimate consequence. Truly, what people bring to
Me is their Intuition of Reality Itself. It is only that they
are not consciously living it. But it is the very premise of
their lives and so they come to Me, Who Lives that Intuition
Consciously, Who is the Sun to their deep-seated Intuition,
and I Draw their Intuition into this instant.
seeker takes the dilemma seriously, but the waking state does
not take your dreams seriously. It is not the least concerned
with your dreams. And, luckily, all beings are already alive
with their Intuition of Reality. Therefore, they have this affinity
with sunlight, with the True Waking State with Me. Unqualified
Reality is What they are already living, and that is What is
consciously discovered in relationship to Me. Because they are
always already Inhering in Unqualified Reality, it is Reality
Itself that Draws them to It. It is the Intuition of Reality
Itself that leads people to Me, that leads them to maintain
themselves in My Avataric Divine Company. All "reasons"
for holding on to Me fall away, and also all the reasons for
not holding on to Me. None of these reasons has any ultimate
significance. The affinity of your True Nature, your Intuition
of your True Nature, the Heart Itself, is entirely responsible
for this sadhana. When you become less concerned for your particular
search, for your inwardness, for your adventure, you have simply
become more sensitive to your Real Condition. You have felt
the sunlight falling on your sleeping eyes. When your eyes have
opened in the morning light, everything will be obvious to you.
And you will know that you have never slept, that you have never
dreamed, that you have never been limited to any thing that
has appeared. You have never been in any condition that you
have assumed. There was always only Reality Itself, your True
Nature Which is Love-Bliss, Consciousness, the Unqualified